Left I Have A Stranger Past

No longer is my refuge there,
nor longing is my homeward dove,
there are no regrets wailing here
for each must hate again to love.
A thousand miles away I am,
a thousand leagues under the sea,
a path that lays me on the lam
and drowning in what is to be.
My soul left standing afterall,
and stronger is my will today,
so many steps beyond the wall
hope does leave again to stay.
May I see my wretched past,
May I know the coming dawn,
Eternal may this vigil last,
and may these words forever anon.

Left To Weep, And Envy Thy Rest.

In the valleys so dark, and skies that rue,
I see my nation, my people, my children,
among their legacy, but mingles the hue,
of a purpose left wasted in egos belligerent.
More than their joys, I have witnessed tears,
miserable reminders how fallen they are,
but more than their patience, indolence I fear
has led them to slumber ignominiously par.
Seeing them defeated, something is awake,
a pondering, curious figure of black,
a visage so horrid, I turn for Gods sake,
and look to my east, yet it looks to my back.
Its gentle steps I can hear, not wanting
and its fingers pondering through the very skin
of every shadow standing silent and taunting,
but holding its breath as if living were a sin.
Its serpentine tongue slithering at my feet,
watchful its gaze, while scratching the soil,
and the fuming horns being thus from the heat
while its whipping tail now drops from a coil.
The bleeding crows that hang from the boughs,
I imagine the fear now frozen in their eyes
must also be prevalent in my own that bow
down to the dust where my destiny lies.
My flesh being torn at the seams of its ponder,
hot blood dangling from the vines of its crown,
and all the while it is I who must wonder,
when will the insatiable beast fall down.
I embrace you, my curse, my wound, my fall,
feed to your fill, until I have withered away,
I forgive you, my nation, my people, my all,
rest from a caprice until the end of all days